i'm losing, far behind now,
in this race
against time.

its this hard.
at least for me.
i think its hard,
cause its getting quite difficult to handle.
i'm now hoping for nothing else but a good night's rest.
cause yesterday's was a horrible & stressful one.
(blessed enough, he was by my side)


its a tough challenge; to stay strong and keep believing during low tides like this,
especially when you're alone.

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today, i received a grade that was least expected.
today seemed like my workload's been multiplied by 2.
today felt like an atomic bomb fell right onto my toes.

still, i want to thank you love, for being here.

i've got to admit. i'm worried, stressed and scared about what's going to happen the next few weeks. (like who doesn't?)
right from the start i knew its going to be a challenging semester, but its only now that i realize how hard it really is. one moment i tell myself, everything'll be alright, another moment the negative thoughts start flooding up my mind. most processes are like that aren't they? strenous and dreadful.

i'll make it through, i told myself.
i'll make it through, i told myself with zero confidence.
i'll make it through, i told myself with zero confidence; cause i'm afraid that all the efforts put in will only lead to disappointment.